I am just an ordinary 14 years old girl who's obsessing a guy who doesn't even know I exist. This post is dedicated to one of the person I love the most.
I'll re-write the story of you and I.
Everything about him is so addicting and truth to be told, he is my ideal type in every single way. His sharp eyes, his inviting pink lips, chubby cheeks and those high nose. Basically, he is really the definition of perfection to me. His voice is so deep yet at the same time very calm. My heart skips a bit whenever I hear his voice/raps. He has the perfect body, not too muscular but he has muscles on certain parts which is good. He also has the perfect height, not too tall, not too short. He's one of those bad-ass boys like. He could be funny, serious, and cute, and I like that.
I never actually put any interest on so-adorable-aegyo like dudes. I like handsome guys, gangsters with Tattoos, piercings, who looks really good in short hair, doesn't like to make his hair like Justin Bieber and he is like that, he has the most gorgeous hair on earth.
Talking about his expression, he looks even cuter when he's mad, or I shall say a blank expression on his face. His smile is gorgeous along with his pink not-so-thin lips and he could be very seductive as well with his famous smirk. I like that.
I like everything about him. He is perfection as I mentioned above.
But life seems harder to me because of our differences and that's what sad about life. We have a huge gap on our age, we live millions miles away, we have different nationality, we have different religion, we have different status, he is famous, well-known, un-like me, I am nothing.
The worse part is that, I am nothing compared to his girl-friend, I am not even close to his ideal type. I would change for him but I am scared all of this will led to .. nothing but just a piece of dream of kids like me.
I'm young, I make mistakes.
But for you, I'll do it but as I said, I am scared.
I am tired crying over you, I am tired listening to your voice as if you were talking to me, I am tired caressing those chubby cheeks of yours in front of a screen, I am tired seeing you happy with another girl and last, I am tired of everything.
All I want to do now is hug you and never let you go and that's true. I would never let you go.
Listen, even if you're not my no.1 bias/celebrity crush, you're still my no.2. But I want you to know that I really care about you, and I hope I could see you someday. You do not know how obsessed I am with you right now. You might think I am one of those fan-girl but please, I am different. I would do anything to at least meet you someday.
Please to always take a good care of yourself, and always be happy. If you even feel alone or whatever, just so you know, I am right here, will always be waiting for you.
and I hope miracles would some day have mercy on me to at least show my love to you. Even though this is a forbidden love of mine.
Why forbidden?
because you have a girlfriend, I can't love you more than just a fan and the deepest secret is, one of my beloved loves you as well.