This post is especially dedicated to my best friends. I can't actually believe that everything is happening so fast right now.
Wow, I didn't notice our friendship already lasted for years. It's amazing wasn't it? All the things we've been through together, thick and thin. Happiness and sadness. Not all friendships are perfect, and so are ours. We fight, we argue, we dis-agree a lot with each other but at the end, we go to the same path which is always to become one again.
and I just wanted to say this once and for all that I love you both so much that I could not even express to you guys face to face due to my cold pride.
So now on this post I want you guys to know that you both means the world to me and I am serious that I could not live without any one of you because you both are my angels sent from above that supports me well, take care of me really well like I'm a little kid. You guys are like my sisters, my everything, my future, and family.
I've always been the worse out of 3, I know that.
I want to take the chance to say it all here. First I am going to start with Marlisa.
Hi Mar, I hope you're reading this because I could never express any of this words on your face. So yeah.
We've been friends since the day I am in EMS. I've known you for so long. We always argue with each other, not talking to each other, my mood swings, my curse, harsh words, teases always leaves a scar on your heart. and I am sorry, I just wanted you to know I love you. I really love you. You would share your food with me, you will fix my scarf for me, you will tie my shoe for me, You would always be there for me to here my complains and all. You're like my family, like my sister.
I really wish I was you sometimes. You have the best personality ever, and I wish I could be you so I wouldn't hurt anyone. I never hate you on anything honestly, I was NEVER mad at you in any specific reason. You make me smile a lot, laugh a lot. You've becoming better and better by seconds to me, and I am so proud of you right now. Your warm hugs are amazing, and I love it. You are always there to comfort me through my hard times. You're just like a mother to me and I don't ever wanna lose you.
I am sorry for everything. I ditched you before and sorry for my harsh words and all. I am sorry, Marlisa. And without your presence, I don't know who I am today, Thank you for everything.
If I was every a guy, I would date you simply because you're perfect Mar, really.
and again the last thing I wanted to say is .. I love you. so much. Don't leave me. I promise I will take a good care of you once our Maknae leave us. Please don't leave me, by the way. Enough after what I have gone through.
and this paragraph is for my dongsaeng, my maknae, Jin.
Hi Jean! Kumustaka na?
I can't believe that you're leaving. I actually can't believe this is happening. This is so hard to accept, trust me, I am going to miss you every second. I'll be thinking about you every single day. All those memories we had, we've been through. EVERYTHING JEAN.
I am crying really hard right now because simply I can't accept the fact you're leaving. I can't. I am very upset, I thought I would be cool with it but I'm a human, I'm young and I'm weak. I am a girl, I tend to have emotion and I cry.
I am going to miss you. I keep on saying that because I will miss you. I will! I will miss every second we spend together. Your whines, and how I always complain how annoying it is. Your things that I always ask - Pen, sanitizer, tissue, pencil, everything. I will miss how you always cutely drinking your chocolate milk everyday. How you always help me at everything. During hard times. During those times I feel like giving up everything and you would be always be there to tell me never look back and keep believing and pray to God. You always give me so much strength in everything like Marlisa. I would miss how we always argue at each other who's score is higher. I would miss all of those things. I would also miss how you always whine on how I always sit, act, eat and everything. and most important thing how you always whine during PE. Now who's going to walk with me during PE during running session? No one because you're leaving us, you're leaving me.
I hope you won't forget me and Marlisa. We both love you so much. I hope when you're off to your new life you won't be forgetting me, and Marlisa. I hope you're going to take a good care of yourself there, little kid. And please remember, never change, you're amazing just the way you are.
I will miss you so much and thank you for everything you had done to me and sorry for everything that I had done to offend you.
and the truth I wanted to tell you days ago was ..
I love you so much!
Now that you are leaving, I guess I have to accept the fact that you are not going to be by my side often.
I believe everything happens for a reason and God is planning everything better for us. I understand that the fact that people leave because we need to learn how to let go. I accept the fact that when you're around someone so much for so long, they become a part of you. and when they go away, you don't know who you are without them.
I'll miss you! (Sorry for saying it for 5th time keke~) So much! Promise me one thing? To you too Omma.
We will achieve our dream together no matter what. We're going to Seoul no matter what's blocking on our way. We're going to be what we want to be. We will go through everything .. together.
and please, pretty pretty please, don't you ever ever feel, like you're nothing. You are perfect to us, in every single way.
I hope I could see you really soon, Jean.
Love, Liyana.
FATE WILL FIND ITS WAY. WE WILL SOON GATHER UP TOGETHER AS 3 JUST LIKE WE ALWAYS DO.
